♥ Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I alway learn to
* love u
* care u
* think u
* dream u
* make u happy
* sacrifice
But i never learn how to forget u..
I wan to learn it..
But i cant..
Isnt v still fren?
Y i didnt dare to ask u?
Edi three weeks didnt see you..
I need to wait 3 weeks again..
Oni can c u once face...
Have chance talk to u..
Haiz..
Wat i thinking at?
Sudden wan c u sudden wan 4gt u...
LOL
Listened to music @ 9:09 PM
♥ Monday, May 25, 2009
Why???
the distance i n u edi vy vy far...
why recently the distance between me n my fren oso far??
isnt becoz of u??
i think no ba..
i duno y???
y my A fren n B fren can suka hati shouted n scolded me in front of many ppl even i didnt do anything wrong..
u think r hu???
i didnt scold u two back just becoz i treat u as a best fren n dun wan like last time u two gaduh..
if i scold u all bk, sure our frenship broken..
Did u all care bout my feeling???
Did u all noe i will get embaress????
Did u all noe i will shame??
U all duno..
u think i can play..
ya..
i can play if u r not too over..
but few time i very angry i oso didnt do wat..
isnt u all need to treat me as M???
ISNT???
WAT THE HELL LA?
WHY ONI ME WILL CARE U ALL FEELING BUT U ALL DIDNT?
ISNT THIS IS THE ONE SHOULD I DO?
NO..NO..NO...NO...
THIS NOT THE WAN I SHOULD DO..
PLZ..
RESPECT ME...
Listened to music @ 8:24 PM
♥
today...
the 1st step i step in skul door..
thinking tat i hv how to face the 2 fren..tiffy n xf..
erm..
wat can i say to them??
the 1st thing i went into the classroom is sitting on my place n looking thru the window..
the breeze was hot.. for last time, the breeze cold like air cond..
isnt the god noe my feeling like this so change the breeze?
i hope dun..
not long, one fren cum near me..
i look at her a while..
but ntg to say..
duno nid to say wat..
beside m topic, wat can i say to her??
for andother fren, v totally say ntg..
few time she sat hi to me..
but i rpy her sum n sum pretend duno..
wat la???
wat i doing???
i oso duno...
and that moment, i tot that i will emo for the whole day coz of m thing...
rupa-rupanya.. not..
when i play vf my other fren, v play until so high..
it let me forget all unhappy thing...
mb beside violent,
play until high is other way to solve my emo problem...
Listened to music @ 8:15 PM
♥ Sunday, May 24, 2009
one.. the time u hurt me until i cant count it out
two..
three..
four...
five...
.........
i am lost..
hu i am?
one of my fren say i am ...
isnt???
y my mind cant think bk tat i am ...
i just noe now i just like a rubbish for u...
even for my fren oso..
all the readers can noe how useless i am...
'Wake up man' 'Wake up man'
hu calling me? hu? hu?
har? is tiffy...n xf....
who r them??
this question in my mind keep thinking n thinking..
now i rmb..
they is my fren..
Walao eh..
then hu is the m???
m is the ppl i like..
y i dunid thinking then can rmb it??
i duno..
i just noe i can forget all ppl..
but just except u..M..
Why the god wan make me so painful live in this useless, meaning less life??
This few day...
my tear... all beside my eye.. nearly drop down..
i dunwan it..
but i cant control..
PPl thing tat i am:-
*strong
*tough
*cheerful
*happy
isnt??
this oni the look..
acualy u all noe me well???
u noe my heart, my mind thinking wat doing wat?
if u r my enemy u sure death...
i same as Erik the phamtom of the opere..
i am a best Fren but a bad Enemy..
i hate wat u all noe?
i like wat u all noe?
ALL DUNO..
DUN SAY U ARE TRYING TO NOE ME..
U CANT!!!!!
COZ MY IN SIDE MY HEART HV LOT OF SECRET THAT U DUNO...
EVEN MY BEST FREN!!!!!!!!!!!
dun think u r great..
not...
acually u not...
Listened to music @ 1:47 PM
♥ Saturday, May 23, 2009
WHO AM I ??????
why no body noe hu am i?
even my self oso...
wat a stupid ppl keep hurting herself to faxie??
walao eh...
silly man...
wat the hell...
doing this kind of rubbish for wat??
u think u will get pity from m???
no....no.....no.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i noe that u wont...
n oso hurting myself not for u...
i m hot temper as a chili..
anything happen will make me be violent..
dun injured u or other better..
so hurt myself......
violent isnt good for me???
i duno...
i think i will be a gila soon...
if i keep thinking this kind of rubbish...
my mind stuck edi..
coz of uuuuuu..........
Listened to music @ 1:14 PM
♥ Wednesday, May 20, 2009
one curve one curve on my hand..
the injurd on my hand keep going up..
but y i dun feel any hurt?
coz my heart is more hurt than my hand..
every blood drop from my hand,
not as pain as my tear drop down..
the scar on my hand leave there forever..
how can i recover it?
y i will do an idiot thing like this?
y i will do an idiot thing tat make me keep like u?
y i will hurt myself when u make me hurt..?
coz this oni the way let me cool down..
i dunwan let my tear fall down coz of u again..
i just will let my blood keep falling down..
until let me death...
Listened to music @ 9:52 PM
♥ Tuesday, May 19, 2009
isnt the best way i forget u better?
if can forget u as soon as posible how good..
y u will misunderstand i like the other gal??
u duno i oni like u?!
when i see the mgs tat u send to me, my heart like break into two..
is there right i straight tell u tat i still like u?
I m so sry sudden say it n shock u..
i just dunwan u to misunderstanding tat i like other..
coz i m mind..
u may noe if the one u like misunderstanding u like other, how will u feel?
feel ntg? can u?
i cant..
now i realy vy sry to u..
coz the mgs tat i send out..
is me over gan jiong..
so sorry..
Listened to music @ 4:17 PM
♥ Saturday, May 16, 2009
Duno y..
i feel realy realy vy tired..
i nid to face the exam stress..
and oso face the stress that u gv me..
mb u duno this the way u gv stress..
but now i tell u..
I am really feel so sry to u..
coz the first kiss i gv other ppl..
but the kiss is no feeling..
just a game..
I hope tat now hv a chance my kiss will gv u..
and not other..
y u will think tat i gv ppl 1st kiss mean i like??
isnt i realy like??
Ok..
well.. say the true..
be4 i kiss the ppl..i realy tot i like.. i think i edi can gv up u..
bt after kiss..
lot of mistake i done..
i cant get any feel in the kiss..
i m sure tat not the ppl i like..
AND THE PEOPLE IS U...
U realy cant feel tat i still like u or just pretend??
SOmetime, i keep thinking tat y i will like u n nt other???
y u will keep turning my mind thinking of u???
isnt like my fren say i kena yr poison???
IN THIS MOMENT, NTG CAN I DO..
I JUST WANNA SAY SORRY TO U..
SORRY....
SORRY....
SORRY....
i noe now i sms oso useless..
coz u wont bother me anymore..
isnt?
i hope this just a negatif thinking and not the real...
Listened to music @ 10:42 PM
♥ Friday, May 15, 2009
The 1st kiss was gone..
u like no any reaction..
y ?
isnt u didnt bother about it or u angry edi?
y didnt u tell me the real ans?
I am not liking the ppl that i kiss..
the kiss just as a reward...
i hope u wont misunderstand that i like the ppl..
I wont like any ppl in this moment except u..
y u dun blif me?
y???
i Straight tell u i like u..
but after this u didnt rpy me any any more..
need so cruel??
i think u noe i am waitng for u..
but just like to pretend..
i duno wat yr mind thinking at..
but u noe my mind thinking at u...
can u tell me wat u think acually?
i wan the real answer in yr heart n not the lie wan..
when u can tell me?
Listened to music @ 9:31 PM
